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lylaislove
12 January 2012 @ 09:05 am

Relationships, the phase.

Remember the phase? Remember the stage where you question a whole lot of things in your head. The doubts you have, possibilities of the near future, differences and the negative past.

Lately, my mind is a maze. I can't seem to focus well when doing things. It is my phase. I think. I hope. It could be second thoughts. It could be... Just me which is the most worrying possibility. To wherever destiny and fate is bringing me, i just pray there's sunshine to the end of it. As always.

My. How i've missed ranting. I'm gonna create a new one soon. This time it's gonna be more like a travelogue. Update soon.

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lylaislove
30 September 2011 @ 12:13 pm

If there is no challenge, there is no thrill. There will be no going forward. I am challenging myself to the top. I want to be the best. To make a difference or an impact to everyone i meet. I know it wont be easy, but here i go.

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lylaislove
16 September 2011 @ 03:10 am
At this point of time, I feel a sadness that I have long not felt. I don't think my mind splits up and causes me to have random questions in my head. Or perhaps I am negative by nature, but I am pretty positive as well when it comes to moving on.

I realise in some phases in my life. I take steps back and question everything. It's quite fucked up cause I may end up turning my back against it. I don't know what is it either. At this time, I feel lost. Floating away from the shore and into the sea. Don't fucking know where it leads me, it's frustrating. 

I can dwell on old memories, question myself again and again, come up with the stupidest questions, dwell again and there you have it, the negative dark side of Laila. Can somebody put some sense in me and cheer me up? 
 
 
lylaislove
06 September 2011 @ 10:31 pm

Perhaps I had nearly 12 hours of sleep and that explains why I am having a hard time getting back to it. The only thing that frustrates me is that if I dont get enough sleep, work later will be tiring. My body now understands the before and after flight effects. I honestly feel sleep affects my work performance up there.

That aside. I am in brisbane now. I believe in whatever that you do, you face the highs and the lows of it. I have to be precise with this. My meaning is passion or interest in whatever you do. Somedays, I ask myself. "Why am I just not doing it right? Do I have to do this over and over? oh fuck it" Somedays, the feeling, it just dies out. And weighing how important that something is to me, only then I decide to pick myself up and go full gear again.

They say aries have tremendous amount of energy or vibe, but the downside is that, they tend to die out halfway. And based on personal experiences, that is right. But I often and too many times question myself. Why so? Because at the end of the day, it comes back to me again thinking why had I become too comfortable? Why wasn't I consistent. I guess it's not being too worked up, I am always challenging myself to the next level.

I have in mind, a few places to go. Maldives, Korea and New York. So far I haven't got the chance to but when I do, (:


 
 
 
lylaislove
19 August 2011 @ 05:04 am


I am such a cereal girl. The colours, how it goes well with milk, the moment it enters your mouth, the wholesomeness of it. I love cereals ^_^

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lylaislove
11 August 2011 @ 12:52 pm
 In life, there're many types of people. But in mine, it's either they're part of my life or not. Right at this moment some people just don't deserve a spot. Only because they are stubborn with their own mindset and not willing to give and take. Hey move on cause you're just gonna be stuck in the shit hole. 

My goodness, I really can't believe how shallow and rigid someone can be. And to think back all what I have done, I guess it was a waste of time. NOT REGRETTING. I just feel it's all wasted.

I am just glad and thankful where I am now and who's by my side. Life has been treating me good. Too good that sometimes I feel like I owe life itself. 
 
 
lylaislove
09 August 2011 @ 04:47 am

I don't think such a best friend exist! I must say this girl here the exact replica of me. Farts around, listen to music with big huge headphones, party together. Most importantly, this girl hardly bails out on me. I know she'll be there when i need her. Azrin wa cinta rabak sama lu.

I am having my leave now. Yay! :) 6 days more to go. My flights are bad these few months. This month, i have london which i'd be so delighted to go but i have to give away cause of raya. And next month i have paris.

I am thinking of doing a photoshoot there. It's my 3rd time there, so i was thinking might as well plan something. Or bring hari raya clothes there as well! Hahaha!

Hmm it's 4am plus in the morning. Sleep soon?

today, last year, i met you.

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lylaislove
03 August 2011 @ 08:12 am
 Hey.

Currently, I am in Brisbane and alone in my hotel room. Sometimes whenever I checked in any room outstation, I look around and observe the room to the smallest detail. Some rooms aren't spacious. But the one I am currently at is a bit more spacious. I just feel that wow, what did I do to deserve this sometimes.

I heard from the rest of my crew that the streets nearby our hotel has good food. True enough, the moment we alighted the bus as we reached the hotel, the smell of roasted chicken filled my nose. I think it was roasted chicken. Mmm. I am not feeling that good by the way, I am sick. Down with cough, sore throat and flu. I guess it's part and parcel of this job. 

Trust me. If you're sick on board, it'll only escalate to something worse. And I met another senior crew who advised me on fasting when travelling. Which timing to follow and all. So here I am fasting in Brisbane. 
The fasting period here is short due to the early sunset. 
 
Sadly, I am planning on staying in my room only because I feel I need maximum rest. :( Should be knocking out soon. And I don't know where's this going to.
 
 
lylaislove
14 June 2011 @ 12:48 pm

I was distracted by the fact that someone can treat you so insignificantly. I believe if anger's the main reason, then you should not hold on to that for long. There's fairness to everything. If you're too caught up with your own emotions, you're just gonna be stucked there for as long as forever.

Move on. Think, havent the person been good to you all this while? Sigh, now i know who my true friends really are.

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